hehe...i'm working on a project for this place called battle river...and there's a section in it called skulls island...feel like i should wear a patch to work with a parrot on my shoulder...

FREE FOOOOD

yeah good news just keeps coming doesn't it? for our "dedication and commitment" to the company in 2004 (for me it's only 3 weeks) we get a $30 grocery store coupon.

hm...how many shrimp rings can i buy for 30 bucks...
mmmmmm I LOVE shrimp rings!!!!

10....9...8....7...6..5...4....3...2............................1

only 10 days till i come home for christmas!!!

i am excited....that is all...

so cold...so snowy....so sad....so many 3-inch heels i cannot wear in the snow without my toes freezing and me breaking my back...
on a quest to find winter shoes that i can walk to work in -26 degree weather in but do not look like i'm wearing my grandma's shoes. if you have suggestions of places to look please tell me...

i come to work 20 minutes early every single day...how come it's the one day i show up 5 minutes late that my boss decides to come in 5 minutes early?

but still it is a good morning. we had a christmas "party" (just food and booze) yesterday in the office and the store forgot three platters of food and brought them after everyone left so there are three huge platters of meats and cheeses in the fridge this morning. my stomach will probably complain about this later...but...mmmm meat...mmmmm cheese

GRRR...i'm back...

yes remember that annoying girl that would pester and whine and nag about people signing her guestbook? well she's back...this time about her comments.

come on guys i'm starting to post again...i know not the most frequent or the most exciting...but still...give me some motivation...i'm still in the frail beginning state...if i get discouraged i might stop again....so yes let me know you've stopped by, even if it's just to say hi...please? please....pretty please?

cubical update...

my new cubie is nice...big bright with a nice big window too..it's all nice and pretty outside with the (still white) snow. the only thing wrong with being able to look outside is that poorly insulated window's make it feel like you ARE outside.
as i am typing this i am wearing gloves and a scarf...INDOORS!!!
guess it does keep me awake at work...but still...caffine does the job good enough...
i have already started wearing tights under my pants to walk to work...will slowly move into longjohns and then flannel lined pants...darned me for being too cheap to pay for parking...

Whenever there is doubt—wait....Wait for God’s timing and He will do it without any heartache or disappointment. When it is a question of the providential will of God, wait for God to move.
- oswald chambers, my utmost for his highest

my usual reaction when there is doubt is to run around like a chicken with it's head cut off....guess waiting's a better idea, huh?

on a totally unrelated note i walked outside today took a deep breath and felt something i hadn't in a very long time...stuff inside my nose froze...ew i know...and to imagine it only gets colder from here.

EVERYTHING WE DO IN LIFE THAT HAS ETERNAL VALUE HINGES ON TWO THINGS: LOVING GOD AND LOVING OTHERS
- Stormie Omartianm, Power of a Praying Woman

someone asked me what my passion was...and honestly i didn't really know what to say...

i seen myself as rather average. not particular good at anything, i do things that i do, some of which i enjoy and others i don't really but do anyways and that was that. i envied people who were "passionate" about the things they do...art, music...even school...sometimes i'd go out and try to "find" my passion.
dabbled in this and that and never really got anywhere.

this summer we did a spiritual gifts test...and my biggest turned out to be hospitality (with bits of mercy). yeah hospitality...what the....people get wisdom and faith and preaching and teaching and all that stuff and...i get hospitality...no fair!

but then i read the above and it really really struck something in my heart...people...guess what! that's it...I LOVE PEOPLE...had let myself forget that...

i think i used to know it. looking in the past at my life and the ministries that i've been involved with, the times that i've felt i was where i was supposed to be, i was with people...and more than that serving them and knowing that the little that i was doing would make a difference. i was pretty gung-ho about it too...

so yes...my passion is serving people. never ever thought of that as a passion...had preferred to have been able to paint , write a book or play an instrument or something...so i let it slip and for a while thought that it was the ministries themselves that were my purpose, so i got into the logistics and planning which is a passion for some, but it was draining and i didn't like doing it so much anymore.

and this whole summer at TCBC with the whole purpose driven thing and spiritual gfits etc etc etc i was looking at myself and trying to find who i was and what God wanted me to be doing.
figured i could bother about other people and serving after i had myself all worked out. is the same attitude i carried over to edmonton and has made me quite bitter since i just haven't been able to work it out.

then this all came to me like i got hit in the head with a frying pan (don't really know how that actually feels but amy did drop a pot on my head when we were small)...first i felt so dumb coz it had taken me so long to figure out something so simple that i had known before...but then i was soooo thankful and couldn't stop it with the praise and i dunno made me feel i dunno....alive?
not that i have my life all defined or anything...far from it...but i have a feeling i'm back on the right path now. make sense?

so yes i don't ever want to forget this again...if later in life you find that i have...yes, you may hit me on the head with a frying pan