WILD GOOSE

In about ten minutes i will be off on my first camping trip ever, since wilderness in hong kong is that patch of grass between highways. It's not hardcore camping or anything, but still will be an interesting experience...we'll see if i survive.

wow...got a totally random email from jessi, my roommate from my junior year in highschool. haven't talked to her in years and last i remember she was off to bucknell, playing tennis, seeing some guy who's name i don't remember and still hating calculus. but now she's done school and getting ready to be shipped off to honduras to join the Peace Corps...somehow my sitting on my bum here in toronto doesn't seem quite as exciting in comparison. i know that you don't have to go off and do something "big" to be living a significant life, but can't help but have that "wow" cross your mind when you hear of someone going off and doing something like that.

as for my own updates, i finally got my first job interview! it's just the initial interview so no promises, but at least it's a glimmer of hope after not getting a single response having sent out at least 150 resumes. hopefully it will be the first of many...of which one or some will lead to actual jobs. 
but yeah really trying to learn the meaning of matthew 6:33 to "seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness" and trust that He'll take care of the rest. with the whole job situation i tend to worry quite a bit and i can't help but feel unprepared for interviews and underqualified for jobs, but i was reminded by a little girl today that "everything is possible for him who believes" (mark 9:23). so pray for me for tomorrow and i'll let you all know how it goes.

time for another online survey

got this one off steph's site apparently i am:


An SECF--Sober Emotional Constructive Follower. This makes you a hippie. You are passionate about your causes and steadfast in your commitments. Once you've made up your mind, no one can convince you otherwise. Your politics are left-leaning, and your lifestyle choices decidedly temperate and chaste.
You do tremendous work when focused, but usually you operate somewhat distracted. You blow hot and cold, and while you normally endeavor on the side of goodness and truth, you have a massive mean streak which is not to be taken lightly. You don't get mad, you get even.
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....."you do tremendous work when focused but usually operate somewhat distracted"....how true....there's truth to the massive mean streak part too...so watch out!

supa has joined a gym...hopefully i will have enough discipline to stick with it and be able to eventually change my nickname. i get one free hour with the personal trainer tomorrow. we had a quick interview after which he concluded that i have no diet discipline and he needs to create a workout that will "blast my abs and thighs". i think tomorrow he will also do that fat measuring thing where he will pinch my underarms and tell me how much of me is blubber...FUN!

but yes discipline in general is definitely something i need to work on. it's actually getting harder since i'm really settling into bumming around and not really having anything pressing to do. at least i've started the job search again (can't call it a hunt coz it's not that intense yet), but the lack of response is slightly discouraging. so with that most things i'm kinda cyclical, i'll start doing it coz i know i should, but then there aren't really any results so i get lazy and slow down and then go slower and eventually stop and bum for a while then i get sick of how idle i've gotten i start getting all gung-ho about it again for a bit, but then the same thing happens.
uncle simon (once again not the boyfriend) was saying in sunday school last week how most seemingly purposeless people aren't lacking a calling, but the discipline to carry it out...man...i really need a kick in the butt (not literally, so don't actually start kicking me)

so yes i figured i'd start building my discipline with a couple things to work on.
- waking up no later than 10am
- doing my devos in the morning rather than shoving them in right before i sleep (i've tried doing this many times, but doesn't ever really last long)
- apart from devos spend an hour reading either the bible or bible related book
- spend at least 2 hours a day searching and applying to jobs
- and since i paid for it, i will work out at the gym on a regular basis. the goal is 2-3 time a week, working up to 3-4 times a week within the next month

....hm....man almost intimidated already...hope i'm not biting off more i can chew...but i will try this for now and see how it goes. and since you guys all know about it you can ask me about it and make sure i'm on track...but once again no real butt kicking please...so yeah...i guess we'll see how things goes....