just packed my life into three suitcases...leaving for edmonton tomorrow....if you haven't talked to me in the last two weeks...yes i am moving to edmonton for the year...long story that i'll probably post later.
so yeah off to live with the cows...tata!

arrived in one piece in edmonton. interview's in 36 hours, but for the meantime am seeing family and friends and enjoying being VERY well fed =)

Out of the depths I cry to you, O LORD ;
O Lord, hear my voice.
Let your ears be attentive
to my cry for mercy.

If you, O LORD , kept a record of sins,
O Lord, who could stand?
But with you there is forgiveness;
therefore you are feared.

I wait for the LORD , my soul waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
My soul waits for the Lord
more than watchmen wait for the morning,
more than watchmen wait for the morning.

O Israel, put your hope in the LORD ,
for with the LORD is unfailing love
and with him is full redemption.
He himself will redeem Israel
from all their sins.

Sometimes it's hard for me to believe God's grace that can wipe away the darkest of sins and change even the hardest of hearts especially when I look at my own and the things that I have done, but in the past have always been encouraged when I read Isaiah...

Though your sins are like scarlet,
they shall be as white as snow;
though they are red as crimson,
they shall be like wool.

but I think when it's quoted, or at least when I quote it I forget the verse that follows...

If you are willing and obedient,
you will eat the best from the land
but if you resist and rebel,
you will be devoured by the sword

so often I go into autopilot thinking that God will change me, but then forget that I must obey him and let myself be changable.
obedience...so hard at times...but must believe that God's promises are true and that in the end He will give me what's best, wash my sins clean and change my heart.