was about the whine and cry about the fact that i am stuck in the computer lab while the whole rest of the world is free and out playing...but...then i read my last post...and yes indeed...i am too blessed to be stressed.
aiya!...so easy to slip into feeling sorry for yourself and complaining about things.

on the bright side, nobody else being in the lab...means that the complab nazis aren't here to rip your head off at the smell of food, so i brought a whole bag of chips ahoy cookies and there being no one else here to have to share with...mwuahahahaha...350g of double chocolate goodness is all mine!
..........now if i could just figure out this whole FUG calculation thing...

i've been realizing that you really can decide how you feel. you can choose to be depressed and wallow and sulk and feel sorry for yourself...or you can choose not to...

i've been through some struggles big and small and downtimes and many a "bleh" times, but each time it only gets clearer that God has blessed me and there is no reason for me not to feel blessed.

i know alot of people are having exams around now and at least for myself i often get caught up in all that needs to be done and get stressed and all...so here's a little something i stole off a friend's wall as a little reminder, it's kinda cute.

I am too blessed to be stressed,
And too anointed to be disappointed.

I refuse to be discouraged; to be sad or to cry.
I refuse to be downhearted and here’s the reason why:
I have a God who is almighty! He is sovereign and supreme!
I have a God who loves me; I am on His team!

He is all wise and powerful; Jesus is His Name;
Though everything else is changeable, My God remains the same!
I refuse to be defeated... My eyes are on my GOD!
He has promised to be with me, as through this life I trod.

I am looking past my circumstances, to heaven’s throne above.
My prayers have reached the heart of God; I am resting in His love!
I give thanks to Him in everything. My eyes are on His face.
The battle is His! The victory is mine! He will help me win the race!

what is up with the "wassups"?

when i ask someone what's up or how's it going, i usually expect an answer, but i'm finding that when many people say don't actually care what is up with you.
i was walking to the UCC the other day and this guy i had class with in first year walking towards me. i smile and say hi, and he goes hey, wassup? so in my little mind i thought that meant we would stop and chat a bit, and proceeded to slow down and start talking...but he just keeps walking right past me, so there i am looking like an idiot talking to myself in the middle of the sidewalk.
i guess people just kinda use it as a greeting and don't really expect a reply...but isn't that like what "hello" is for? see if someone just said hello i would smile say hello back and then that would be that, no me looking stupid...but sigh...somehow things just never are that easy are they...

hm...i was gonna post a picture here and write about taking pictures...but it's been so long i forget how to do that...so we'll just have to do without the visual...

but yes, i would like to comment on that horrible thing that happens when you give an asian a digital camera...as soon as you do, you will never be safe again. every moment of your life could potentially be captured and used against you without your even knowing. like you could be sleeping peacefully and unsuspectingly on a bus back from retreat and a week later you find a picture of yourself posted on someone's imagestation page...drool and all!!! (grrrr...mike!!!!). and let's not even get started on all the most unflattering midspeach/blinking/eating pictures that are everywhere now. but then again...the ones that aren't of yourself can be pretty funny...

oh and i thought it was bad enough when we get together and take group shots and everyone wants a copy with their camera, so you'd be sitting there with your smile frozen on forever and then when it finally gets to your camera your face hurts so much you just end up scowling...thought that the digital cameras would at least eliminate that problem...but noooo...everyone still needs to take one with their own cameras...and since it's digital and cost practically nothing to take more pictures...they'll want two or three or four shots each...just thinking about it hurts my face...

ah yes...and everyone wants pictures with everyone all the time, and it's always the same pose...cho is the queen of this (mike follows closely after tho)...i swear i have like 10 pictures with her at 10 different occasion and you can't tell the difference coz it's the same pose: two people heads slightly tilted towards each other, always the same smile...although occasionally she'll throw in the fobby peace sign to mix things up a bit. =P

but as much as this whole thing is rather ridiculous, somehow when a digital camera is placed into my hands, i do the exact same thing. not quite to the cho/mike extent, but i took more pictures in one night than i did the past two years combined. something about it just screams at you to take pictures of anything and everything...think it's also related to the chinese mentality that since it's free you have to take as many as you can...hm...

ok, so whiile i'm on the topic of pictures, might as well throw this one in...grad pictures...
yes i just got my proofs back today...(and NO you may not see them)
but yes, asides from not liking to pose for pictures, and getting two hours of sleep the night before and having 5 of the most boring hours of class prior to the shoot...and them being the worst pictures ever...the guy MADE ME WEAR A HAT!...well the grad cap...but yes, if you know me or have seen me, you will know.....my head does not do hats!!!!
and yes he made me. i couldn't stop him even though i was paying him to take the pictures. argh!
but then again...hehe...upon picking up my proofs today, i noticed that there were 14 proofs/poses...whereas i (being the cheapo i am) only ordered and paid for 10...so excluding the 3 horrible hat ones i still got one bonus...HA! i win afterall!!!...speaking of which i have been recently informed that apparently when a guy and a girl argue, somehow it's like law that the girl always gets to win...wish i had learned that sooner....but yes, that will be a topic for another day...